I just thought about you.

Yeah, you, the one with the blade

who thinks as an adult

and feels a hundred years old,

but scared as a kid

that need his parents to go and look

the monster in the closet is gone.

I just thought about you.

I just cried for you.

I just lost for a second.

And I will never forget that feeling,

not entirely, it will remain.

But that will make me appreciate more

each hug you give me,

each smile you accidentally show me,

and you’ll appreciate them too.

I just thought about you,

and a world lacking of you

is not the one I want to live in.

I cannot change what you went through,

I cannot change what you are going through.

I do not know you, but I’d like to.

So, no matter what, you’ve got a friend in me.

thoughts

The theory is confirmed: my dog is smarter than my brother.

I said to myself “Maná has to shower, she is full of mud, but I don’t really feel like it”, so my brother was blackmailed offered himself to help me. In conclusion, I went to do some stuff, came back and he was in the bed. I asked him where she was, he said the dog was showering by herself. I couldn’t believe he was so dumb to believe she was gonna do that it but, actually, when I came into the bathroom, she was just sitting inside of the plate tasting smelling the different shampoos as the water poured over her.

personal puppy yay

solar-citrus:

You would be surprised with how many people in your life could be going through depression at this very moment.  People hide it like a paper bag over their heads out of fear of being judged, made fun of, seen as weak, or just not taken seriously.  Depression should not be taken lightly, it holds us down from our purpose and potential in life.  Those who tell you that it doesn’t exist have never experienced depression in their life, therefore not understanding the symptoms and how it’s something that cannot be fixed in a day!  So if you think you are depressed or if you think you know someone else who is, please talk to a friend, a family member, or anyone else in your life that you trust - never overlook the possibility of seeing a doctor for more professional help!!  Your feelings are real, your feelings are shared upon millions.  Don’t hide it, talk to someone about it.  With the right help, you can rediscover your confidence and begin life anew with our undying love and support!

We are right here!!

My younger brother told me mental illnesses about mood stuff do not exist and that if someone commits suicide, they are just weak and it is no one’s fault but their own. I started to cry when he did but he did not understand why and just got mad at me for throwing over his head my drink. My mum and I keep from him the knowledge of me being at the hospital for self harm injuries and intent to hang myself and what my pills really do.

So, yeah, even the closer ones can be going through it and you just may not notice. This is relevant.

(via what-i-am-dreaming-of)

important shit important

"Long-distance relationships are quite common among ENFPs, as they view physical distance as just another idea, no match for concepts like love. This gives them the chance to demonstrate their commitment, both by staying true despite the physical separation, and with overtures of effort to surprise their partners, crossing that distance on a whim. These are demonstrations of ENFPs’ mystery, idealism and deep emotion, and such efforts often keep the flames of a relationship burning bright"
- http://www.16personalities.com/enfp-relationships-dating (via enfpconfessions)

(Source: enfpearl, via what-i-am-dreaming-of)

you see woman istp enfp this is freaking me out a bit since years ago but anyway

Stolen tips

I am sorry, okay?

I am sorry I cannot be there. I am sorry I get incredibly mad for the most insignificant thing. I am sorry I lie too much and I am sorry I am such a bad liar you always get hurt just as the words come out of my mouth.

I want to apologise for that time you gave me an i love you and for how I took it to warm myself, I want to apologise about how I treated it. About how I thought it was just a blanket and, even if it was my favourite one, I never did much for it. I want to apologise for using it to wipe my tears away and for eating on it, for allowing my pets to bite it and for every summer I didn’t need it anymore and threw it anywhere for months. I want to apologise for being so reckless.

I beg pardon for being a thief, for taking things away without asking and I am sorry even now I write this on my own stolen computer. I’ll give it back when I finish it, though, I want to start again. I beg pardon for not loving you enough, or not loving you like I should have. I beg pardon for not knowing how to love.

I have tried, I swear I have tried. I tried to give you my core but when the first flame burnt my fingers, I moved away as reflex. I couldn’t stop it, but it doesn’t mean it is not my fault. I know it is. I know it has always been.

I have been there, picking up the shattered glass to clean up the whole place and make something beautiful, but I did not realise I was cutting myself deeper with every piece of it. I did not realise I was bleeding from my feet and hands, I did not think about the trail of blood and horror I was leaving behind me. I thought nothing could be that bad.

And maybe this will make some kind of sense to you, because I can’t quite figure out what my own words mean or where they are aiming for. I don’t even know who this is for. Maybe no one, maybe everyone. Maybe you. Maybe me.

I just know I am hurting and I miss you a lot. I don’t know who you are but I can already tell I love you and I hate everything that reminds me you aren’t here. I can already feel you lips pulling away from mine. I can already feel my breath feeling empty without yours. I miss the tip of your fingers around me, racing lap after lap across a track only you were able to see. I can already feel how disturbing it is you don’t acknowledge my existence, but you don’t deserve me. No one deserves me. Not because I am to much of a cure, mostly because I am too much of an illness and maybe just one or two have been completely eradicated from the world, but I can tell you I don’t want to end up becoming another black death.

Rip me apart and maybe you will find a vaccine that can save both of us from becoming what we fear the most.

I am sorry I have become pandemic. The more I try to hide, the larger I get. Find the strength to forgive me somehow. Forget me not.

birbrightsactivist:

if you want to understand the psyche of our generation take a good look at the stories we tell ourselves about the future

because it isn’t flying cars or robot dogs, it’s faceless government surveillance and worldwide pandemics and militarized police brutality and the last dregs of humanity struggling to survive

our generation isn’t self-centered, or lazy, or whatever else they wanna say about us. we are young, and we are here, and we are deeply, deeply afraid.

(Source: frightsactivist, via what-i-am-dreaming-of)

this is so fucking true it hurts

what-i-am-dreaming-of:

YAY SO MUCH FUN

thatquietgirloverthere:

nooneunderstandswhatitslike:

thekingofawkwardness:

Rule 1: Always post the rules 
Rule 2: Answer the questions the person who tagged you asked (and answered) and write 9 new ones. 
Rule 3: Tag people and link them to this post. 
Rule 4: Actually tell them you tagged them.

NOW HERE COMES MY QUESTIONS YAAAAAAY

  1. If you could live in the story of a book or as a character, which one and why?
    I would love to be in the story shiver. the main character is so strong minded even when do many things go wrong in her life. im also like jealous of the relationships she has with everyone. life is worth living for sam and her family, even if she has to hide a little bit.
  2. If you could make a social group with 5 fictional characters, who and why? Think for, like, adventures and shit.
  3. What superpower do you think would fit your personality? 
    I don’t really know what my personality is like so„ to me it would be invisibility or teleportation
  4. Money being no object, where would you go in the world or space and who with?
    where wouldn’t I go?! aha, I would love to spend the most time in like forest areas and sunny beaches. I would take my family and my best friends and my boyfriend and if he wanted, his family aswell. :3 
  5. Favourite Film?
    ummm hunger games?? I am number 4?? idk >.<
  6. Stranded on an Island with 5 Artists, who would you have with you?
    like music artists? probably 1. the neighbourhood. 2. the 1975. 3. paramore 4. hedley 5.the fray 
  7. Brick or Bottle?
    bottle definitely
  8. Master of Languages or Master of Music?
    I wish I was a master of languages, but right now„ im better at music ahaha
  9. Teleportation or Influence of Fire?
    teleportation!! omg I would love that so much!

MWAHAHA NOW YOU SHALL ANSWER MY QUESTIONS HAH

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ughhh now I have to think of 9 questions!! okay here we go

1. what do you think about yourself?
2. what’s your favourite band
3. what is your favourite thing about nature (eg. stars, trees etc.) and why?
4. favourite song and what does it say about you?
5. what are you the absolute MOST passionate about?
6. star sign? believe that stuff?
7. weirdest thing that has happened to you?
8. favourite place in the world? why?
9. most attractive thing on people?

yay I thought of 9!! ahah have fun guys :* 

thatquietgirloverthere

1. I’d say I can go from narcissist to “don’t look at how disgusting I am” in the blink of an eye.

2. Mmm… Tough one. Right now OneRepublic, Fall Out Boy and Simple Plan occupy a big part of my itunes, but I have always loved the old black eyed peas, oasis and the beatles. Also, I pretty much love every single song by the fray, nirvana or foo fighters.

3. I think air. Like how you can close your eyes and feel everything around you by the way the atmosphere smells and no two places smell the same. I don’t know, it is just something I quite adore even if I don’t enjoy every smell, but I think beauty loses a lot without it. Also the background sounds the nature produces, it is like life’s soundtrack. Precious.

4. I can’t tell one, but it would probably say that I feel/felt lonely, full of hate to others and tearing apart while being surrounded by people and while supposedly being loved and supported. Or that I felt like this but someone changed how I saw things. Idk.

5. Probably people I love. You can tell me awful things but you tell me that girl I love isn’t as beautiful as the one in the magazines and you are dead. I become super over protective. Also, writing at times. I hate how everyone is like “anyone can write”. Well, yeah, most can write but making it come to life and touch someone is more difficult. I hate how it is sub valued and everyone tries without it being the big thing for them.

6. I am libra and I do not believe that stuff, but it is fun to look into it nonetheless.

7. No idea. Too many stuff.

8. I like street at night, even more in a city near the beach. The streets are all empty and the air smell makes me relaxed but also feeling somehow happy and powerful, like if I owned the place I was standing in. I feel safe.

9. Cool sense of humour, real tolerance (trying to understand every point) and a good mind always comes in handy.

MY QUESTIONS:

1. What do you think about yourself?

2. What do you think about me?

3. What makes you happy when nothing else can?

4. Art is in the eye of the beholder, art can’t be “that weird stuff people sell for millions being completely non sense” or everything should be art to everyone?

5. Listening or speaking?

6. What are you most proud of?

7. Most hateful thing anyone has ever said to you and who said it.

8. Most lovely thing anyone has ever said to you and who said it.

9. Favorite not famous real-life relationship.

I nominate @nooneunderstandswhatitslike back, and add what-i-am-dreaming-of.

Ooookay, here I go, a little late but who cares:

1. What do you think about yourself? I actually believe I’m not myself yet, if that makes any sense. I mean, when I think about the concept of “myself”, i see all the journey I’ve done since i was aware I could improve as a person, what i am right now (which is not very bad i guess), and all the possibilities of what I want to become. So basically “myself” is a never-ending aspiration to keep getting better 

2. What do you think about me? I think you are my best friend and a lovely little person who needs to stop listening to bullshit people say and start seeing herself as I see you because you owe it to yourself and because you are great, fun, endearing and valuable

3. What makes you happy when nothing else can? I guess drawing. It shootes me and calms me when I’m sad or angry or just in whichever situation because it makes me think in something that isn’t what happened (though if the drawing doesn’t turn out the way i wanted it it doesn’t work but hey nothing is perfect)

4. Art is in the eye of the beholder, art can’t be “that weird stuff people sell for millions being completely non sense” or everything should be art to everyone? mmm tricky but i guess all of them. I don’t believe everything is art, but i do think everything has a little art. Art isn’t just old italian paintings or greek sculptures, art is in the sky, in people and their feelings and thoughts, in words and maths and moments. Of course, we are all different so we all filter that art different ways and can find something artistic when other person may not

5. Listening or speaking? I really like both but I’ve always been a compulsive talker

6. What are you most proud of? if you mean about myself, I guess being a self-centered person like i am, I take most pride in the moments I’m completely selfless, when I help someone in need just for the sake of it or make them feel better without wanting or asking anything in return. If you mean about the world, books, language, art and feminism

7. Most hateful thing anyone has ever said to you and who said it. idk, I hated when they called me know-it-all as a kid, it made me feel really really really down and being studious it happened quite often, even if i insisted that they stopped doing it

8. Most lovely thing anyone has ever said to you and who said it. "Thank you for existing" and you, kiddo

9. Favorite not famous real-life relationship? My cousin and his girlfriend?? They have been dating for like 12 or 13 years since they were teenagers, both love each other a lot but never made the other give up their studies or carreers to be together. Indeed, they have studied in different cities and now work apart from each other too. They travel to see each other most weekends and of course they would prefer it other way, but they addapt to circumnstances and keep going and i think that’s very brave and mature 

MY QUESTIONS: 

1. What’s your biggest dream?

2. Any guilty pleasure or secret hobbie nobody knows about?

3. Would you risk everything for something you believe in?

4. What enrages you the most?

5. What’s the memory you are most fond of?

6. If you could time travel, where would you go and why? Would you change anything?

7. Do you sing in the shower?

8. If money, time or whatever issues didn’t matter, what would you dedicate your life to?

9.  What feature do you find most interesting in a person?

I nominate vasosybesos, thatquietgirloverthere back and yetanothernerdgirl

1. Idk, probably achieving what I am for and regain a lot of self confidence I lost somewhere in my way.

2. I maybe enjoy a bit too much hugging, pecking and kissing people I feel close to. It’s a bit weird, even if I don’t mean it in a romantic way. I enjoy physical touch if I trust that person.

3. Most probably. If I didn’t, I would end up hating myself too much.

4. People going through my stuff, people who pick on other people and people who have no personality whatsoever to please everyone.

5. Mmmm… I love a lot of them and you are in most. Probably the night we spent talking to each other in your room last summer, I was having a rough time and it was a perfect moment. I felt totally safe and cared about and realised I finally had someone I could trust no matter what. I honestly love every memory I have with you since we became friends, from the moment I told you about you-know-who and when we met in Starbucks after almost a year to the end of times.

6. I have done so many things wrong… And I kinda dislike where I am, but it is not bad or anything and I have you. I don’t know the possible consequences it could have over us if I changed anything in my past, so I would prefer not to think about it.

7. Is this even a real question? Of course I do, but I am not sure it can be called “singing”.

8. Helping others, travel with you, granting people things they would need. I would love just to go around the world giving present to everyone that was good or had the potential to be deep down.

EDIT: I have actually realised I literally want to be Santa Claus. Would you be my Mrs. Claus, girl? 😉 Do you want to build a snowmaaan? 

9. Sometimes it’s just the colour I see in them (like yours, that is complex and beautiful), morals or back stories. I have no idea besides that. Sorry.

ask asks questions question my no one's girl yep

I read a while ago that we feel more, and for a longer period of time, eating chocolate than kissing our love.
In case you didn&#8217;t know, the experiment was also done with pets and photos of their owners. They got the same effect seeing who they loved that we got with chocolate, and the experiment was repeated some years later. They still had the exact same sensations, even when some owners had died.
Maybe we should reconnect with our animal side and just live and love, without overthinking.

I read a while ago that we feel more, and for a longer period of time, eating chocolate than kissing our love.
In case you didn’t know, the experiment was also done with pets and photos of their owners. They got the same effect seeing who they loved that we got with chocolate, and the experiment was repeated some years later. They still had the exact same sensations, even when some owners had died.
Maybe we should reconnect with our animal side and just live and love, without overthinking.

puppy yay that's my new doggie yep love chocolate thoughts